Thursday, June 12, 2008

Lift Me Up

If I could pick one song to experience today... I think that I would want it to be this one... The soft subtle prayer like whispers to be lifted up by another's love is a humbling jesture that evokes the desire to be admired in such a selfless manner... It is a promise that assures the gift of love without it being earned... there is only one thing that is required: The willingness to let you feel my love upon you... and to let you rest in the power of knowing my love. "Let your love Lift Me Up"... "let" is a purposeful word to use here... It is not a forced action... I don't have to make it happen... but just relax and let it happen... which allows me to be myself with confidence... knowing that I don't have to make you love me... just let you love me... and let you feel that I am real...

"I don't need your answered prayers... Or the chains your lover wears... I don't need your rings of gold... Or the secrets that you hold... Lift me up... Lift me up and I'll fall with you... Lift me up... Let your love lift me up... I don't need your sacred vow... Or the promise tomorrow brings... Veiled behind the morning clouds... I'll take the fate the daylight brings... Lift me up, darling... Lift me up, and I'll fall with you lift me up... Let your love lift me up... When the morning bright... Lifts away this night... In the light above... We will find our love, we will find our love. Your skin, your hand upon my neck... This skin, your fingers on my skin... This kiss, this heartbeat this breath... This heart, this heart this wilderness... Lift me up darling... Lift me up and I'll fall with you lift me up... Let your love lift me up."

This could very possibly be the last "princess card" that I send you... So before I get on that great big plane that will take me across the pond... and land safely in Europe... I would like to thank you for letting me share myself with you all these months... thank you for helping to inspire my desire to be me again and for staying close beside me... Thank you for holding my hand when I was lost and alone... and for encouraging me to write again... Thank you for the sacrifices that you have made to help me to fullfil my dreams. Your friendship and loyalty has meant so much to me... You ROCK!!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

All I'm Thinkin' Bout Is You & Europe!!

I've always heard that the first step is the hardest... (or was that, the first cut is the deepest?) well... as hard as it was... I took that first step... yes... I have my passport!!

The count down has begun!! I can't believe in less than 12 days I will be on a plane flying over the Atlantic Ocean!! Since I was a little girl I've dreamt of this trip and now it's so close to becoming a reality. I'm almost afraid to share my excitement as I don't want to jinx myself!! I will be landing in Amsterdam on Tuesday morning @ 7am and 6 days later I will experience Belgium followed by Italy!!

Did I mention that while I'm in Europe I'll be catching 3 Bruce Springsteen shows??!! Yes 3!!! I am very excited to see for myself the European Fans in action!! I've heard that they really ROCK! I'll let you know what I think.

Having not flown on a plane in 30 years I was ever so fortunate to have my friend Dana (who works for an airline) walk me through the security and boarding process. We even got the opportunity to do a live "run through" taking a plane to North Carolina last month to attend the shows... so I'm all set!! But I do need to pack!!

I can't wait to share the details of my dream come true vacation with YOU!!!

Bruce Springsteen's Lucky Day!!

"One day I looked straight at her and she looked straight back!!"

So the Greensboro show ends and we are heading for the truck... I was with a few of my friends... Dana, Kathy, Brenda, Kathrine and Richard... and we stopped to chat with venue security outside at the crosswalk... As we chat more fans gather... so we are slowly leaving but then I pause to chat with 2 fans from Chicago... a woman and her darling husband... he was actually European and very passionate about Bruce so I almost had to give him my attention... which indeed made our timing perfect!! I look to see a few SUV's drive past us and I see Steve in one... A couple more drive by so I assumed that Bruce was in one of them and had left the building... but that wasn't so... because just a few seconds later, there he is.

For no apparent reason the driver stops the truck with Bruce's window right in front of me... There I stood holding my silly little sign MY LOVE WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN Bruce smiles and begins to roll down his window... as I took a step toward Bruce... like a whirlwind... everyone rushed around me and well I had no idea that would happen... I was shocked... and as the fans rush in on Bruce, I say to them,"you guys, don't scare him away"... laughing but disappointed that I hadn't realized the fan reaction! So I simply went to the back passenger window to peek in... all I saw was darkness... the tinted window didn't offer me much of a view... but Bruce's bodyguard opens it so I could see in... that was so sweet of him... I recognized Mr Bodyguard's face immediately having seen him in so many "Bruce" pictures... I said Hi and smiled as I whispered "Thank you". Bruce had his hands full so I decide to chat with his guard... It was a very nice moment... and felt sort of like I knew him not even considering that he had never seen my face before... I hadn't been this close since 1984... before he had joined in. Anyhow... I gave him my sign folded up and asked him if he would give it to Bruce... he said that he would... so I opened it to show him... and he said "aaww you should show him and he can sign it" but I told him that I didn't need an autograph... and that I just would like Bruce to see it. (and play it!)

Right about then I decide to see if I could get Bruce's attention... but everyone is yelling "Bruce" "Bruce" "Bruce" and so I say "Mr Springsteen" softly as there was no need to yell... he was right there... but I wasn't sure if he was able to hear me because of all the excitement at his window... so I slowly yet very naturally reach in and with two fingers very lightly tug on his sleeve near his bicep... suddenly realizing that my finger was resting on a rock hard muscle... and I am now frozen in a moment of bliss... I get no response from Bruce so I simply stand there quietly just watching his kindness toward his overly zealous fans... he was so beautiful... and I was happy just to be so close and watch... I had no idea that one of the girls at the front window was kissing his hands and confessing that he had saved her... which when I did hear of it, I understood his inability to give me his attention... I mean... how could he have turned away from her? Ultimately I saw more of his soul and the beauty of the gift that he has been graced with in that one moment of watching the kindness in his face toward this young lady... (with green hair) than had he given me that moment of his time... my respect for him... not as a musician... but as a person grew 10 fold. Then he gave a little time to some other fans at the front window before he began to roll the window up... I said goodbye to Bruce's guard (I wish I knew his name) and I stepped back... Then much to my surprise... Bruce turns around in his seat and offers me his hand. I reached out accepting his offer and put my hand in his... we smile... and... well for a moment I thought that he recognized me... but how could he... 20 years and a million faces later?

On the plane ride home I searched for the mental picture of that smile... remembering how my hand felt in his... (oh come on... don't tell me that you wouldn't be doing the same?) but I'll admit it... I was in awe... of his gentle spirit... but I was so worried that the memory of that moment would fade away...

I get home and open a thread on Btx... it was movielady's thread and she was telling her side of the story that I just shared with you... she too had been left in the dust behind certain fans... but since she couldn't see Bruce she just raised her camera above their heads and took a picture... wasn't I surprised to discover that she happened to take her picture of Bruce just as he turned around in his seat to offer me his hand!! I'm not in the picture but it's our handshake.

Thanks Katherine!!

(photo by: movielady aka Katherine)